thewrongkindofpc: ryan ross in dark glasses, in a car with a cat on his shoulder (Default)
2016-10-07 06:26 am

Dear yuletide author

Hi, hello, thank you in advance for writing me a story! Like pretty much all of us who do this challenge, I love reading stories that other people have loved writing, so please feel free to ignore anything in here that doesn't really work for you. I'm really excited about the fandoms I've requested this year, and I'm excited to be watched with someone who's as excited about one of them as I am.

General likes: I'm pretty flexible about tropes and genres and things I'm into - I can find a story I like that fits pretty much any description, from High School AU to space opera to meticulously-close-to-canon AU to missing scene fic. Mostly the thing that really does it for me is characters having conversations, no matter what the setting is. There was a point in my life when I couldn't write a fic without having people talk on the phone in it, and while I've mostly grown out of it, you still can't beat fic with a lot of dialogue for me. I think trope fic is lots of fun, if that's your thing, and I do love crossovers, so feel free to poke around at my journal or ao3, If I've mentioned something even once, I'd be totally down for a crossover or fusion, if that's what floats your boat.

General dislikes: The only thing I really don't do is brain damage or memory loss stories. I'd love to avoid stories with totally bleak endings - either positive or ambiguous would be great, but other than that, the field is pretty much wide open.

So I've done what I've always done, which is, pretty much, explode all of my feelings about a fandom into my optional details boxes in sign-up. I'm going to reprint those here, and then maybe throw in a couple of prompts at the end. You should totally feel free to ignore them, but I also don't want to be one of those recipients that's completely unhelpful, so they're there for inspiration if you want.

Sing Street, requested characters: Conor "Cosmo" Lalor, Raphina, Eamon

There are a bunch of different things I'm interested in seeing about this hugely charming movie, but there are two big ones. One of them is Raphina getting her own turn to find the kind of belonging Conor found with the band within the movie, because it was so very much a boy's coming of age tale, and I loved the way it was about finding a place for yourself in the world, and building one if there wasn't one to find, and building a gang of friends that makes you feel invincible. All of that was great, but Raphina was in need of that just as much as Conor, if not more, and she got to be along for the ride a little, but I'd really love to see her find some equivalent of that, whether it's in a band of her own after they get to London (if they make it, I see Conor probably going back before too long to deal with his family, probably, but that girl was OUT of there), or something else she stumbles into on her quest for a modeling job, or even just a job waiting tables with a very tight-knit staff.

Another thing I'd be just as thrilled to see explored is Eamon's blindingly massive crush of Conor, whether it's eventually requited or just stays un-. "Want to write a song?" "Always," I mean, I know he loves music, but come ON, kid. Other things about Eamon I'd love to read fic about: what it's like when his father gets out of rehab, whether playing music together was a bonding thing for him and his father, how his mother feels about his music obsession (I was sensing a little bit of resentment early on), and what's actually the deal with all the rabbits? (I know, I know, he just loves them, be still my HEART.)


Okay, um, prompts - I guess I already gave a few: Raphina in a band, Eamon's massive crush on Conor, what's up with the bunnies? What about an epistolatory story where Raphina stays in London but Conor ends up going home to try to sort things out with his family? Or Conor's sister - in some ways, this was not a great movie to be a woman in, and it was frustrating to see her character get no fleshing out at all, so what if she and Eamon strike up a friendship after Conor and Raphina skip town? And hey, does Conor ever try to go by Cosmo again? So many questions ;)

The Bright Sessions requested characters: Chloe, Damien, Adam, Caleb

I have no idea what to say for really specific prompts because I have no idea what season 3 is going to bring for these characters. I will say that I really am the most interested in Damian and Chloe when they interact with each other. They're such good bright mirror/dark mirrors for each other, and I love the thought of Chloe starting to grapple with the moral ambiguity that can come with using her power. The way she didn't even want to entertain the idea that there could be any early on was totally fascinating to me, and being around Damien, whose power is inherently creepy in a more obvious way makes her confront it, and I love that. And for Damien, I'd be really interested to see how using his power changed from the time it first manifested to now. He seems like someone who wants to be the embodiment of "absolute power corrupts absolutely," but he's so petty and small, in some ways, he can't even manage to be the evil he aspires to be.

On the other hand, Adam and Caleb. Oh my god, they're sweet like puppies, but they have their own blindingly massive issues, don't they? Even leaving aside that thing I'm hoping season 3 fixes really fast. I'd love to see those two figure out how to navigate their relationship in a more healthy way (because "I want to be responsible for your feelings" is, like, a sentiment that could go wrong very fast, Caleb, no matter how affectionately it's intended, that shit is not sustainable or even respectful, really.) I'd love to see Adam start to get some help, and I'd really love to see the two of them trying to figure all of this out in the context of their high school, interacting with their peers.

I'd also love to see more of Caleb and Chloe interacting, since I bet there's a weird kind of balance in their interactions that neither of them really gets with anyone else, what with their powers.

Really, I'm up for most anything you feel like writing about any of these characters, though.


Okay, so I claimed to have no ideas about specific prompts, but that's not entirely true. What about a school dance? What about if Damien runs into Chloe on a date and mindfucks his way into joining them? What about if Chloe and Caleb end up talking about Caleb and Adam's breakup when doing art therapy with Frank, and Frank ends up having the best relationship advice around? Or a story about Adam investigating his parents in earnest? There are a whole lot of stories I'm interested in when it comes to these characters, and pretty much any combination of them interacting with each other would be super cool.


OKAY, that was as far as I got this morning, but I wasn't quite expecting for assignments to have gone out already, so I'm going to try to rush to finish this. Sorry about that, secret author!

Lovely Little Losers requested characters: Bea, Ben, Balthazar, PeterPedro

I love group fic, and ensemble casts, and how much all these kids love each other, so if you're drawn to write something like that, I'm so up for it. That said, again, there are a few things I'm especially interested in. Like, okay, Peter and Balth, what are they actually like as a couple, after all of the fuss of getting them together in the series? I have a feeling working on their communication issues is going to take longer than just the end of the show to resolve, and I'd love to see some of that happen. They've both been pretty good at avoiding expressing themselves, but I feel like for Peter, it was more of an aberration because he was a little lost for a while, and didn't have the reserves of confidence I feel like usually bolster him through a hard conversation. For Balthazar, though, I feel like it's more of a way of life, and more of something that could be an issue later. I'm not just interested in how they work out their conflicts, though - I'd also love to hear about Balth going to Peter's shows, Peter coming to Balth's gigs (or even tagging along on his first tour? Balth's opening for this band and Peter comes along and sells merch?) the two of them hanging out with Rosa, or John, or Rosa AND John, cooking together, Peter being a massive cuddle monster, whatever weird thing is going on with Peter's family, I am interested in it ALL.

As for Bea and Ben, if that's a direction you're inspired to take, I LOVE Bea in all of her wrathfully protective glory over Hero, and I'd love to see the first time she turns that furious protectiveness over Ben, because you know she does, and you know it's massive and blinding, and some part of Ben may not actually have been expecting it. Other things I'd love: them being supportive of each other, hijinks involving a false-alarm pregnancy scare, or, alternately, ace!Ben who (this was my secret theory through much of LoLiLo) instituted the rules to give himself some extra time to figure out how to talk to Bea about his sexuality (I'm not married to this idea, but I am interested in it).


Well, again, I guess there are definitely some specific prompt ideas in there. Other tropetastic thoughts I'd love to see: meet the parents! Well, I guess that idea is more about US meeting their parents, since presumably all our characters have already met each other's families while growing up together. Maybe not, though, their school doesn't seem that small. I guess the one I'm most interested in is our resident free-spirit Balthazar Jones meeting the uptight-but-affable people I'm presuming spawned Peter, for some reason. Ben freaking out over Bea's parents could be fun, too, though. Other thoughts: Does Peter pursue acting? Does Peter continue to go by Peter, or transition back to Pedro? Oooh, Ben and Hero getting a little bonding time in would be rad. This is all a bit of a mess of a prompt, isn't it? I'm sorry. Anyway, there are a lot of things just off the top of my head that it makes me giddy to think of reading about, so hopefully if this is where we match, there's something to spark your interest.

Casson Family requested character: Indigo

I love the whole family so much, and I love the way they all interact with each other from here to infinity, but Indigo is my boy, always has been, always will be. As the sole relatively quiet kid in a family full of big personalities (in some ways I think he resembles Eve in temperament, only, like, a thousand times more practical and pragmatic) I'd really love to see a little bit about how he figures out how to differentiate himself from his family and work out what his individual identity is as he grows up. Not very into the Indigo/Sarah thing (in fact, I kind of vaguely ship Indigo/Tom, in a nebulous, maybe-in-the-future sort of way), but pretty much anything else you might feel inspired by about this kid, especially as he grows up, would be so adored.

Specific things I'm interested in: future fic! Maybe university, what's that like, living away from home, and being in a totally different environment where your personality can no longer be defined by your very colorful family? Does he stay friends with Marcus? How about Tom, when does he get to see Tom again? And Bill--of all of the children, Indigo is the one Bill always seemed the most disconnected from, to me, do they ever communicate a little bit more? Does Indigo stay in a band? Does he ever write music? Does Tom? Do they have a little international song-writing club? Does Indigo play a gig in the states that for some strange reason is attended by Tom's estranged mother? So many questions. And anything about Indigo and Rose, or Indigo and Saffy, or Caddy, or all of them together, or in any configuration, as they grow, would make my heart grow three sizes.

Anyway, hey secret author, I hope some of this mess is somewhat helpful, and I hope you have a ton of fun writing whatever you end up writing, I can't wait to read it.

Thanks in advance,
-pc
thewrongkindofpc: ryan ross in dark glasses, in a car with a cat on his shoulder (Default)
2015-10-26 09:57 pm

Dear Yuletide Author

(*waves* dear anyone else who still follows me here, hey, hi, how are you? Actual entry to follow in a few days, sorry for the many months of absence, life got very busy)

Dear Yuletide Author,

I assume, since we've matched one one of these fandoms I'm so excited to connect with someone new over, that you are a pretty rad individual. Hello, rad individual! As such, I totally trust that whatever you have in your heart to write about one of these fandoms will be awesome, even if you totally disregard everything else in this letter - optional details are so very optional, these are just a few ideas of some things that catch in my head when I think about them.

As a general thing, I'd request no stories dealing with brain damage, memory loss, or amnesia, but other than that, it's a pretty open playing field.

General things I like: crossovers, close-to-canon AUs, much-further-from-canon AUs that use details from canon in interesting ways, established relationship fic, missing scene fic, fic where people recognize each other's limitations, fic where people have a lot of conversations, reconnection stories, crack pairings involving people who have never met but would probably get along really well if they did, kittens.

Specific fandoms:

Nothing Much To Do

From my sign-up: Okay, so one thing I'll admit straight up is that, as of now, Lovely Little Losers is KILLING ME, and that is definitely informing that request, because I'd love to see an interpretation of what happened between Peter and Balth in that missing time period between the two series, and I would really really love to see them trying to talk things through like grown-ups, and a happy ending for them would make me giddy. On the other hand, I can totally see an interpretation where they don't end up together, since their lack of communication so far is so stunning. As long as they try to work it out in a healthy way, and are secure in their fondness for each other by the end, I'm happy.

If, on the other hand, you're not interested in writing about their dynamics as a couple, one of the things that interested me most from the first series was John and Peter-then-Pedro's relationship, and I'd love to see anything more of that,anything from their childhoods together to trying to work things out after NMTD.

On the third hand entirely, if you felt like writing about both of those things, that would be something I'd be incredibly into as well.


I think that actually basically covers it, except that I feel like I should say that, since the second series is still airing, and I know how hard that can make writing, I totally understand if you feel like the best way to do it is either to pick an episode to work from and go AU with anything that comes out after that, or even ignore the second series entirely and just focus on the first. Whatever works for you, dude.

Cracked After Hours

From my sign-up: There are so many little moments in the series I'd love to see expanded on: the time Michael went to Thanksgiving with Dan's family, how exactly Soren's crush on Susan B. Anthony, at what point between the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles episode and the one where they talk about villains they'd be henchmen for and Katie nods along with the rest of them like she's seen it did she watch Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, and why? Why were they on a camping trip that one time? What would they actually do in a zombie apocalypse? How much coaching did Soren give Dan before that time Dan tried to ask the waitress out in that one episode?

If you choose to go with that last one, I'm totally down for Soren/Dan shipping - really, I'm up for shipping it in any situation. Ditto Michael/Katie, and Katie/Soren when they're doing that thing they do where Soren acts like he's looking for a woman who can make him cry and Katie acts like she'd be happy to be that woman. I'm also interested in any poly-shipping that might catch your fancy in this context. Really, mystery author, I'm interested in just about anything you can throw at me.


Again, I said most of what I meant to, I'm interested in most things about these guys. Other things I particularly like, that maybe you particularly like, too: Dan's insistence on getting the proper pluralization of movie titles, the way there is clearly the makings of an EPIC Marvel vs. DC debate between Soren and Dan one of these days, the way Katie let the restraining order against Michael lapse, Michael's insistence that he is one of the 'normal' ones of them, that weird espionage-like thing going on in the background of the diners, the waitress who doesn't know Soren's name.

The Riches

From my sign-up: Watching this series again recently has been such a delight, and there really isn't much I wouldn't love to read about it - a what-comes-next story for after the series, maybe a pre-series story about the time when Dahlia was in jail, and the way Wayne and the kids had to adjust, even something about Actual Doug Rich's kids--sometimes it gets to me that, as big of a jerk as he is, they may never know what happened to him. Occasionally I think about what it would be like if one of the Malloy kids met one of Doug Rich's kids at some point in the future.

I also just really love the Malloy kids, though, and the way they tease and protect and are there for each other, and I'd be fascinated to see either some of the ways that dynamic developed, or the way it changes, or doesn't change, as they grow up.


Of all of the fandoms I requested, this is probably the one that, if you were in the mood, I would be the most interested in seeing crossovers for, but then I feel weird even saying so because I ALSO don't want to lessen any chance I might have for getting straight-up Riches fic, because I just love this family so MUCH. You know what, if this is the fandom we match on, a) rock on, mystery author, and b) anything you write is going to make me so happy, ANYTHING AT ALL, so, uh, no pressure.

Casson Family

From my sign-up: Really, this is my eternal yuletide fandom, so if this is where we match up, I'm going to be so thrilled. One of the things I love most about these books is the way the family you find and the family you're born with don't have to be mutually exclusive, and the way you still have to choose when it comes to the people you're related to, and how far you're going to let them into your life, as much as you love them. I'd love to see something about the ways different people who have become part of the family at different times over the years navigate that as they get older, or something about the way Caddy and Michael set up their own family, and the ways that that's the same, the ways that it's different, and the way the people in both overlap.

I'm happy to read gen or Caddy/Michael, and I'd be totally interested to read something about Eve and Bill and the ways they must have worked as a couple once. Besides those, though, I'm not that interested in the future pairings with the kids that the narrative is pointing at - Saffy/Sarah and Indigo/Tom both sound a lot more interesting to me than Sarah/Indigo, and I don't really believe that, when Tom and Rose grow up, they'll be interested in each other that way, no offense, Hilary McKay. Which isn't to say I'm requesting any of those pairings, I'd be more than happy with gen-ish shenanigans of all kinds, and like I said, Caddy and Michael and their made-for-each-other-ness warms my icy, icy heart, and mostly, I just hope you write something that makes you as happy as the possibility of matching with someone on this fandom makes me.


Yeah, okay, I think I said it all here, too.


Anyway, happy winter exchange season, mystery author. Thank you in advance, and I'm so excited to see what you come up with!
thewrongkindofpc: ryan ross in dark glasses, in a car with a cat on his shoulder (Default)
2015-01-28 01:20 pm

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Something good happened, something good happened, imagine I am singing a little song about it because, um, I may have done that. Holding this good thing inside my chest and trying to use it as a source of confidence I can use to try for other things which, if they work out, would be good things as well.

<3
thewrongkindofpc: ryan ross in dark glasses, in a car with a cat on his shoulder (Default)
2015-01-23 10:05 am

...you've got that one (or five) thing(s)

Five things! I've been thinking it's been forever since I've done a comment fic prompt meme post, and possibly they're out of fashion? Or just all on tumblr, anyway, because I haven't really seen anyone else doing them in a journal-space lately, either. Which means there aren't any hanging around that I've noticed and can grab, which is why I'm falling back on the tried-and-true five things!

So! Give me a pairing, character, set of characters, or fandom, and a five things prompt (ex: Five times Spencer Smith didn't get lost on public transportation, Five things Fiona Gallagher would take with her if she was running away to a deserted island) and I will do my best to give you an answer. I don't promise that all five of the things (or any of them!) will get full-on ficlets, but there will at least be a list. Who doesn't love lists?

Fandoms include my bandom usual suspects, Shameless (US), Young Avengers, I could probably manage some MCU stuff, Jonas boys and assorted Disney girls, The Secret Garden and all the other Burnett children I regularly get worked up about, Swordspoint 'verse, John Dies at the End, How To Get Away With Murder, and I think I'm there enough with all the Highlander stuff [personal profile] aria and I have been watching that I could do that, too. And anything else you've seen me get excited about is probably worth a shot as well.

So, um, please prompt me?
thewrongkindofpc: Kate Bishop in a purple pea coat and holding a bow, sunglasses on like a badass (kate bishop)
2015-01-08 08:50 pm

and this has been a long time coming

I've been meaning to link all of the things I've been posting to Ao3 here--I've been saying I'm going to do it since, um, jeez, since August, and now that I finally have a day off I'm managing to actually knock some things off of my to-do list during, I thought I'd give it a shot, so here goes, most recent to least:

eyes replaced by pearls
fandom: In The Flesh
pairing: Simon/Kieren, Kieren & Jem
length: 16,081
summary: Jem is determined not to take any more shit, Kieren refuses to believe that anything is an inappropriate subject for humor, and Simon is trying to switch genres. It’s a good thing they’re all so good with effective communication, or this could get messy—oh, wait.

The Beginning of the World Often Comes
fandom: John Dies at the End
pairing: gen, canon pairings
length: 2,762
summary: Dave’s mission, should he choose to accept it, is to convince John’s teenage self to befriend his own teenage self in the past, because if they’re never friends, they’ll never save the world together, and so they’ll all cease to exist. Problem is, Dave can’t think of any compelling reasons why teenage John should want to befriend him. Written for Yuletide!

You Makes Me Feel (So)
fandom: Bandom (Cobra Starship, The Like)
pairing: Vicky-T/Z Berg
length: 2,838
summary: Z raises a delicate blond eyebrow, and Victoria considers raising one right back, upping the ante in this bizarre game of who’s-more-chill chicken she and Z have ended up in. Baby's first barista AU! Written for bandom_holidays

The Heart No Longer Stirred
fandom: How To Get Away With Murder
pairing: Lila Stanguard/Rebecca Sutter
length: 3,310
summary: I am a Partially Deceased Syndrome Sufferer, and what I did in my untreated state was not my fault.

Lila knows all about affirmations, remembers her mother reciting back candy-bright words after the voice on a cassette when Lila was a child. She knows about the words you say to make them true because she's been doing it her whole life. She's one of their most cooperative patients at the treatment center. Still, sometimes she gets nightmares.

An In The Flesh AU

Heavy Walls
fandom: Shameless (US)
pairing: Mandy Milkovich/OFC, Mandy Milkovich/Lip Gallagher, gen
length: 2,544
summary:If there is no love in this world, then we will build a new world, and we will give it walls.

-Jonathan Safran Foer, Everything Is Illuminated


(Basically the queer!Mandy fic of my heart)

Lions and Tigers and Bears
fandom: Bandom (JJAMZ, Ryan Ross is his own fandom)
pairing: Z & Ryan
length: 10,747
summary: Ryan and Z work a lot better as friends than they did as boyfriend and girlfriend. It might have been better if they’d figured that out before they tried to date, but better late than never, right? Together, they spend some time remembering that growing up is a process that never ends, and that sometimes it’s a process that’s easier to deal with when you leave yourself some time to smell the flowers (metaphorically) and feed the ducks (not metaphorically). Written for Bandom Big Bang!

Postcards From Greece
fandom: Ryan Ross is his own fandom
pairing: gen
length: 948
summary: Ryan goes to Greece and thinks about postcards a lot.

Old jokes don't die, they just wait for the next generation
fandom: MCU, Captain America Movies
pairing: gen
length: 107
summary: Drabblicious snatch of conversation

The beginning after the end
fandom: John Dies At The End
pairing: John/Dave/Amy
length: 2,581
summary: Response to the prompt: john/dave/amy we all survived the spider apocalypse sex!

I said, "Let's find a roof."

She said, "Let's find a bed."

ghost fingers
fandom: John Dies At The End
pairing: Dave/Amy
length: 1,320
summary: For the prompt on the John Dies at The End kink meme, "Amy/Any masturbation, Amy masturbates, or gives someone a hand-job, using her ghost hand."

Bullseye
fandom: Young Avengers, Hawkeye
pairing: Kate/America
length: 1,042
summary: Kate gives America an archery lesson.

A little more conversation
fandom: Young Avengers
pairing: Teddy Altman/Billy Kaplan, David Alleyne/Tommy Shepherd, Kate Bishop/America Chavez
length: 1899
summary: Five conversations that managed to happen without Kate Bishop’s help. Missing scene fic from v2. Technically a series of codas to my longer Young Avengers piece, Of All Possible Worlds
thewrongkindofpc: ryan ross in dark glasses, in a car with a cat on his shoulder (Default)
2014-10-26 12:13 am

dear yuletider

Dear my yuletide match,

Hi! How are you this fine day? I'm so excited to read whatever you come up with--for some reason, yuletide is exempt from my general grinchiness around the holidays, and everything about participating thrills me. First, I want to say that I am totally a believer in optional details being optional--with the exception of the few things that I have a genuine problem reading (which I'll list below), I would pretty much always prefer for you to completely forget everything in this letter and write a story you're really invested in telling than to force yourself to write something that fits my tastes.

The only things I'm not really up for in the fic I read are brain damage, mind control or amnesia, and I'd prefer not to read anything that involves my favorite characters committing acts of sexual violence. Other than that, the playing field is pretty wide-open.

I'm a confirmed multishipper, so if there's a particular ship in any of these fandoms that you either want to try out or are really into, chances are I'll be totally down for that. I also read a lot of gen, so if shipping isn't your cup of tea, either in general or in whatever fandom we match up in, that's awesome too.

Fresh Meat (Oregon Shawcross, Vod Nordstrom)

These girls, man, they slay me. I usually try to stay kind of ship-neutral in these letters so my writer doesn't feel pressured, but I'll admit it here, I totally ship it. Truly, madly, deeply. If you feel like going in a gen direction that's totally cool, too--I bet they'd have some rad gen hijinks, maybe getting their first apartment together out of school, say, or protest-hopping to trawl for boys. Like, I'm not knocking the appeal of their straight, unadulterated friendship. But if you feel like writing them into a relationship, or just into bed, I would be in no way at all displeased. Just throwing that out there.

What I love about these two when they interact is that even when they're bad for each other, even when they fuck each other up, when Vod expects Oregon to do her homework or Oregon lies about her identity or they have a falling-out while backpacking (and I'm totally curious about how that vacation of theirs really went down) there's such caring underlying the ways that they're awful to each other that there's never any question that they'll move past it. I'd love to see Vod pursue acting, I'd love to see Oregon not being a good writer and knowing it and keeping on writing anyway, I'd love to see them supporting each other in a myriad of all-encompassing, over-the-top, ridiculous, round-about ways. I want Vod to start taking some hesitating, clumsy steps towards dealing with some of the issues her mother left her with. I want them to have dinner with Oregon's parents. Basically, I want anything at all you can throw at me, so if this show is your show, come at me, bro. Do your worst.

(I also love every other character on the show, p. much, so if you feel like moving in an ensemble direction, that's perfect too [though if there's any Josie-bashing I will probably cry--my friend I watch the show with is pretty anti-Josie and idgi at all--she's my delusional-sunshine-murder-baby].)

Poldark (TV 1975) (Demelza Carne, Jinny Carter, Francis Poldark, Ross Poldark)

Poldark. Okay, massive overshare/storytime. The Poldark series had a weirdly massive influence on my childhood--when I was a kid, my mom used to check the VHSs of it out from the library and watch it after I went to bed when I was in elementary school. Since I was a teeny tiny insomniac, I would lie awake in the next room and listen to the whole thing. I would do this with a lot of the movies she watched, but for some reason, Poldark was the one that I couldn't take just listening to without being able to see, so a couple of nights (and episodes) in, I got out of bed and walked in to the living room. I was expecting my mom to send me back to bed, and I still don't know why she didn't, but she moved over on the couch and let me sit and watch with her for hours. I can't say I totally understood all of it at the time, but I was pretty enthralled anyway, and there were scenes from it stuck in my head for years and years afterwards.

Fast forward to this past summer, me just graduated from college and at loose ends and living with my mom while I figure out my next step. I heard that there was going to be a reboot starring Aiden Turner, and I got really excited. I told my mom, and we spent an entire night looking up everything else the actors in the original cast had ever done. The next day, I went in to the local library I hadn't been to since I left for school and braved my years-ignored library fine to check out the DVDs. We watched them all in a rush, and I was as charmed by the show's overblown sentiment and '70s-interpretation-of-period-hair hair as I was the first time, but it kept hitting me that the pace just moved so fast, there wasn't time to explore these character dynamics fully. Basically, what I'm saying is that if our match-up fandom is Poldark, no matter what you do, I'm going to just be so incredibly gratified to get a peek into someone else's thoughts about the show (and if you feel like chatting about it post-yuletide, I'd be totally up for that).

I think Demelza is one of the most fascinating characters in the world, and anything you feel like writing about her will thrill me. Jinny is actually my favorite, I'd be so interested in anything from her point of view. I'm also interested in Ross's relationship with her entire family, so if that's something you feel like grappling with, feel free. Ross is a pretty odd, intense dude, so it makes sense that pretty much all of his relationships are likewise odd and intense. I'm always intrigued by his relationship with Francis, who always grows on me in the strangest way as the series goes on. Francis's actions are so tied up in Ross's reactions and pushing Ross's buttons, whereas Ross barely seems to think about Francis at all--until the scene with the cards, that is, when he notices Francis being picked on and sweeps in in a way that feels habitual to me, like that was their dynamic in childhood. I didn't have enough character options to nominate Verity, too, but if you felt like looking at her relationships with Francis and/or Ross, I'd also be into that.

Political Animals (Anne Ogami, Douglas Hammond, TJ Hammond)

Like the entirety of tumblr, I have a massive weakness for Sebastian Stan right now, which is why I embarked on my Political Animals rewatch this summer. By the end of it, though, I realized that as much as I love TJ, my stand-out favorite at this point is Anne. I'd love anything about her carving out a place for her in the Hammond/Barrish family, especially anything where she spends some time with TJ, or more interactions with Margaret, and anything that addresses how messed up it was when the family chased her and Douglas down to crash their elopement would definitely be something I'd be into. I'm also really intrigued by TJ and Douglas's relationship, so if Anne's not as interesting to you as she is to me, I'd also love to read anything about those two growing up.

Hanna (Hanna Heller, Sophie)

Basically anything about these two reconnecting as adults, or about what Hanna does next after the end of the movie. Honestly, if you're into AUs, I'd be interested in that for these two, too. Feel free to take it to a shippy place, but no pressure. I'm also into crossovers if I have any familiarity with the other fandom, so if that's what you're into, feel free to poke around in my journal or my AO3 bookmarks. Basically, if this is where we match up, I'm up for pretty much anything, though it'd make me extra pleased if it could end happily or at least ambiguously--poor Hanna deserves a break, you know?

Boyhood (Mason Evans, Olivia Evans, Mindy Welbrock, Randy Welbrock)

I enjoyed this movie so much, and one of the reasons was that it put things on-screen that I could really connect to, types of relationships that I hadn't really seen depicted in fiction before, and was only familiar with from my life. One of those things was the way Mason and Samantha and Mindy and Randy interacted in that brief period when their parents were married--less than family and more than friends, close in a way that was slightly forced but still genuine. The way it was their parents' relationships that completely dictated their own because they were children and their connections to each other had always been out of their control. I'd love either a closer look at those kids finding ways to fit together when they were kids, and trying to find a dynamic that worked for all of them, or maybe a story about them reconnecting later in life somehow.

Bad Education (Chantelle Parsons, Frank Grayson, Stephen Carmichael)

Chantelle and Stephen's friendship is pretty much my favorite thing in the world, I'd love a closer look at that, and if you felt like getting into how they got to know each other, that'd be awesome, too. I'd also love more of Frank and Stephen's relationship--if there's one thing about this last season that surprised me, it was how much it hurt to hear Frank Grayson say "I'm not pedigree." I mean, I still laughed, but it was one of those choking, incredulous types of laughs that stuck in my chest. This is one of those absurd, over-the-top shows that doesn't stray into genuine emotion very often. I'm not sure whether I'd more like to read a story that's as absurd as the show, or one that digs into the characters a little more and fills them out. Either one would be fantastic. Both would be transcendent. If you feel like writing about these three characters spending time together at some point, though, that's something I would love.


So hey, mystery writer! I hope I haven't overwhelmed you here--I've had exchange assignments light on details enough to make me nervous, and I don;t want to do that to someone else, but seriously, feel free to ignore any of this you don't want to deal with.

Thank you in advance for writing my story!

<3

-pc
thewrongkindofpc: Kate Bishop in a purple pea coat and holding a bow, sunglasses on like a badass (kate bishop)
2014-09-29 09:34 pm

i need to stop guilting myself about the things I don't manage to post here

Basically, I keep telling myself I can't post anything here until I write up a post listing every fic I've put up on Ao3 since the last time I crossposted here in, I think, mid-July, which is actually kind of a lot? Idk, guys. Being unemployed and directionless was actually pretty great for the creative juices for a while.

All of that is over now, though--both the unemployment and the creativity. I'll do that list soon, and I'll talk about stuff, like the coffee shop I'll be working at and the fancy-shmancy internship I'm doing and the fabulous apartment just outside Boston I'll be living in (cross your finger) wicked soon with a super awesome roommate.

Rn, though, I'm really not up for much more than talking about Yuletide for a few--I just submitted my noms. One of them is Poldark, the original tv series, which my mom and I just watched again, and which I'm determined to find some fans of before the Aiden Turner-starring remake comes out this winter or spring (I am incredibly excited about the remake, but I know that after it comes out, it will prob be impossible to talk about the old one without talking about the new one). I submitted character tags for Demelza because, like, duh, she's the best, and Francis because he's bizarrely endearing and I am so interested in his relationship with Ross, and Ross himself because I'd be interested in looking closer at him in conjunction with either Francis or Demelza (or Verity, but I didn't have enough tags left to include her :(), and then I did Jinny Carter becuase she is totally my favorite now and forever.

I also did Fresh Meat, which I would love to read more fic of, especially if it's about Vod and Oregon being in love, and Hanna because I still want a happy ending for Hanna and Sophie (and also an Avengers crossover where Natasha and Hanna bond, but let's not ask for the moon, yes?), and I'm actually going to get it together to sign up for yuletide this year instead of just writing treats, I swear, and I am genuinely kind of extremely excited about it?

So hi guys! Hope you're all doing well! <3
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2014-08-24 01:02 pm

that writing meme that's going around

Give me a letter & I'll answer!

A. Describe your comfort zone—a typical you-fic.
B. Is there a trope you’ve yet to try your hand at, but really want to?
C. Is there a trope you wouldn’t touch with a ten foot pole?
D. How many fic ideas are you nurturing right now? Care to share one of them?
E. Share one of your strengths.
F. Share one of your weaknesses.
G. Share a snippet from one of your favorite pieces of prose you’ve written and explain why you’re proud of it.
H. Share a snippet from one of your favorite dialogue scenes you’ve written and explain why you’re proud of it.
I. Which fic has been the hardest to write?
J. Which fic has been the easiest to write?
K. Is writing your passion or just a fun hobby?
L. Is there an episode section of canon above all others that inspires you just a little bit more?
M. What’s the best writing advice you’ve ever come across?
N. What’s the worst writing advice you’ve ever come across?
O. If you could choose one of your fics to be filmed, which would you choose?
P. If you only could write one pairing for the rest of your life, which pairing would it be?
Q. Do you write your story from start to finish, or do you write the scenes out of order?
R. Do you use any tools, like worksheets or outlines?
S. Stephen King once said that his muse is a man who lives in the basement. Do you have a muse?
T. Describe your perfect writing conditions.
U. How many times do you usually revise your fic/chapter before posting?
V. Choose a passage from one of your earlier fics and edit it into your current writing style. (Person sending the ask is free to make suggestions).
W. If you were to revise one of your older fics from start to finish, which would it be and why?
X. Have you ever deleted one of your published fics?
Y. What do you look for in a beta?
Z. Do you beta yourself? If so, what kind of beta are you?
AA. How do you feel about collaborations?
AB. Share three of your favorite fic writers and why you like them so much.
AC. If you could write the sequel (or prequel) to any fic out there not written by yourself, which would you choose?
AD. Do you accept prompts?
AE. Do you take liberties with canon or are you very strict about your fic being canon compliant?
AF. How do you feel about smut?
AG. How do you feel about crack?
AH. What are your thoughts on non-con and dub-con?
AI. Would you ever kill off a canon character?
AJ. Which is your favorite site to post fic?
AK. Talk about your current wips.
AL. Talk about a review that made your day.
AM. Do you ever get rude reviews and how do you deal with them?
AN. Write 3 sentences of an alternative ending to a fic you've written (specify by title, link or general description).
thewrongkindofpc: Kate Bishop in a purple pea coat and holding a bow, sunglasses on like a badass (kate bishop)
2014-07-09 02:27 pm

being a superhero is great, everyone should try it

I want to pull a Joey Comeau here and just start off with, "Hey, I'm Sidney and I've been thinking about sex," but, you know, that's not even true.

I've been thinking about sexuality, though, mine and just in general. I haven't come to any conclusions, really, except that mine is really nebulous, I think, and also that the fact that I lie to myself a lot about why I do the things I do doesn't make this kind of thing any easier to figure out. And there's probably a reason I've always been nervous about slapping labels on shit.

Anyway.

I wrote a Young Avengers story, because did I mention? I got really into the Young Avengers recently.

It is called Of All Possible Worlds and it mostly consists of an outpouring of feelings about Kate Bishop strung together by missing scene fic conversations-that-should-have-been from v2. Also, I ship Kate Bishop with everyone, so fair warning.

Hope you all are doing well! I feel really boring lately, which is probably why I don't have much to report, but you guys are awesome, I'm going to try to be around online more often in the near future.
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2014-05-14 10:19 am

graduate, paper chase, we'll get out of this place...

Hey guys!

So, I graduated from college. Who among us truly thought this day would come? The graduating itself wasn't particularly interesting, though. You know what's interesting? Memes.

The first one, I grabbed from [personal profile] inlovewithnight

1. Everyone should post their ten most CRUCIAL CRUCIAL CRUCIAL-ASS movies, like the movies that explain everything about yourselves in your current incarnations (not necessarily your ten favorite movies but the ten movies that you, as a person existing currently, feel would help people get to know you) (they can change later on obviously).

1) practical magic
2) oliver!
3) a little romance
4) x2
5) trainspotting
6) history boys
7) the social network
8) shakespeare in love
9) absolute beginners
10) saved!

2. Sort by number of plays in itunes or whatever equivalent you have, and count out the top ten songs by the top ten artists--that is, if someone is the artist on your number one song and also on your number three, count them for number one, and count the next one down as the third, so that each artist only shows up once.

My itunes got pretty much rebuilt from scratch when my computer crashed three years ago, so this is a 'most played in the past three years' list.

1) chicago, spring standards
2) jesus etc., wilco
3) 1979 (smashing pumpkins cover), bad rabbits
4) challengers, the new pornographers
5) where i belong, ryan ross
6) sink, swim, laura stevenson
7) the absence of god, rilo kiley
8) empty streets, ghost beach
9) cleverly disguised, jjamz
10) will do, tv on the radio

I also wrote a couple of things, these past few weeks:

title: Life Pumping Through me
fandom: Before Sunrise
summary: Five times Celine and Jesse missed each other after Before Sunrise, and one time they didn't have to.

title: Outrageous Fortune
fandom: Shameless (US)
summary: Debbie Gallagher and “if music be the food of love, can you turn that bullshit off?” Takes place during and just after the last season.
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2014-04-29 01:21 pm

(no subject)

Hello!

I never know how to start these things, and am currently even more self-conscious than usual about it, because I have been taking this literacy studies class, because apparently I decided I really needed another reason to be twitchy about my writing. That, or it was a required course to graduate. One of those.

I am doing some things that feel pretty significant right now. One of those is applying for jobs, the non-service industry kind of jobs that actually give a shit about my degree. The other is starting a draft of a fic for wave three of Bandom Big Bang.

I am going to say that I am being pretty successful in both of those things, and here are the reasons why: I am operating under the entirely non-logic-based assumption that whether or not I get hired is largely to do with how many places I apply, rather than how qualified I am or am not for any of the positions I apply for. Quantity, not quality, people. The more places that reject me, the more likely it becomes that the next place I apply to will hire me, right? This is a comforting way of thinking mostly because, as it transpires, I am not actually qualified for much of anything, except for possibly writing for alumni magazines.

I have also taken to cutting myself off from sending out applications at the point where my cover letters start to get too effusive and over-enthusiastic, because I do not actually want to frighten people.

I'm also, this one in the realm of BBB, counting my endeavors a success because I'm not trying to force myself to deal with a plot-plot, what I'm writing is much like what I always write--characters having feelings, and conversations about those feelings, and not much else. I won't hold it against any of you if that doesn't sound particularly enticing to read. I'm having fun.

(I will probably try to come up with a more dynamic summary to post for BBB, though)

([personal profile] zeenell seems to be of the opinion that it's cool that I'm basically planning on writing 10k of gen domesticity fic. This is why people have friends, right? So they can be reassured about their bad ideas?)

Anyway. Hi there, whoever's reading. I hope everything is going well. <3
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2014-04-23 02:41 pm

Ao3 hit count meme

1) Chemical Reactions (New Girl, 2011)
2) welcome home (Agents of SHIELD, 2013)
3) furtive little feelings (Agents of SHIELD, 2013)
4) I fought the law (and the law won) (Agents of SHIELD, 2013)
5) The One Where Cobra Starship Have Really Bad Boundaries (Bandom/Cobras, 2011)
6) All The Friends You Need (Bandom/TAI..., 2011)
7) Go West, Young Man (The Newsroom, 2012)
8) When The Smoke Cleared (Bandom/panic, tyv, 2012)
9) See You in Another Life (Shameless (US), 2012)
10) Waiting for the Opportune Moment (Bandom/The Like, 2012)

Initial thoughts: well, yeah, those little Agents of SHIELD ficlets really blew up more than I was expecting. Big fandoms, man. The New Girl one was for yuletide when the show had first come out, so that makes sense. And yeah, it also makes sense that the rest is mostly bandom.

I am kind of surprised that those two little random, TV show character study ficlets snuck. They're both for shows I've been thinking about trying to write in for real, one of these days, so maybe that's a sign. Especially Shameless. The last season tore my heart out and stomped around on it repeatedly.

It's kind of a fun surprise to see that The Like fic creep in at the end, there--I'm still pretty fond of that one.

And okay, yeah, it's obvious that the last two years have been a pretty bad time for me and getting things written. Hopefully that'll start to change after I graduate.
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2014-04-04 04:53 pm

the seasonally designated dealer of death

Had a bit of a Boston jaunt for spring break the past couple of days, which was pretty fantabulous. While I was there, I saw The Winter Soldier twice, two days in a row. Needless to say, I was pretty jazzed about it, and walked out of the theater wanting to talk to all of you smart people about it.

Winter Soldier spoilers under the cut. )

There are lots of other things I'd like to talk about, too—Nell and I had a pretty thorough post-mortem at a diner after we watched to movie the second time, and she took notes from that conversation, so maybe she’ll post those? Or we can just chat in comments about other things, I’m not feeling quite coherent yet about anything else.
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2014-03-27 03:33 pm

"warm heart, we spin slowly from view"

Hi guys. Long time no type.

I think I have been a little bit sadder than I knew this winter, but that's okay, because the reason I know now is that it's starting to be spring and I feel like I'm thawing too, so, you know, that's cool.

It looks like I'm actually going to graduate in a couple of months, so there's that, too. Five years isn't that long, especially compared to a lot of people I meet these days, but it's felt like a little bit of a schlep, three schools in five years, and honestly, there were moments when I wasn't sure I was going to get to this moment, where I feel like I can say that, so that's kind of significant.

I don't know exactly what I'm going to do next, but I think the first step is to move to a different town (probably Boston) and locate some form of gainful employment. After that, we'll see.

(My adviser said to me, the other day, "And soon, we should start talking about grad school," and I had this visceral um, no reaction. I'm not saying never, there are still plenty of things I want to learn, some of them even in an academic setting, but right now I am so tired. Even talking about thinking about applying gave me a stress rash.)

I've been listening to a lot of Roxy Music and Welcome to Night Vale, I'm reading Stevie Smith, I wrote this fic for no_tags: once, twice, three times a lady (z/tennessee), and the only part of bandom I feel particularly invested in at the moment is Z Berg's instagram and tumblr presence--she just continues to delight me. I don't know, maybe I'll get back into other parts soon. We'll see.

I've been watching some BBC shows--I highly recommend Fresh Meat. The first couple of episodes are pretty rocky, but I think it's episode five where something just clicks, I love it.

How are you guys? Hope everything's good. <3
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2014-02-07 08:35 pm

Rare Ship Swap letter

Hello!

I'm sorry if there was only my placeholder up when you got my assignment, anon person I match on a fandom with! Hopefully my optional details were some help in the meantime.

Things I like generally: AUs! But also really meticulously close the canon fic. The ships that I've requested for this challenge are all non-canon, so stories that mention the way characters were feeling in the source material as a lead-up to get-together stories have a special place in my heart. I love get-together fic, but I also love established relationship stories, and feel strongly enough about all of the ships I've requested that I don't really need to be convinced that they would get together.

I'm honestly pretty not-picky, and a firm believer in "optional details are optional"--I'd much rather receive a story that you loved writing and feel really strongly about than one that meticulously follows my taste. Stories written with love are the best :).

I like stories about growth, about change, about characters learning how to grow and change together. I love stories where characters spend time with their significant other's family or their significant other's friends. I have a fondness for mild h/c, I like stories with strong friendships, stories where there are rational, civil conversations with exes that acknowledge that they used to care a lot about each other. I like stories involving cats. Roommate bonding is always fun.

Things I'm not big on: not in a great place for major character death now, cheating, rape, and I absolutely can't do stories involving brain damage, memory loss or amnesia, or mind-altering drugs.

My fic can be found here and some stories I love can be found here. This journal is pretty new, but feel free to dig around here or at the LJ it links to, if you are so inclined.


Bend it Like Beckham, Jules/Jess

I'll have more general details in my letter, but I'd basically love just about anything about these two. I love the idea of future fic, get together fic in college, get together fic after college, established relationship fic, stories where they both go pro but are on different teams and have to make the long distance thing work, stories where one of them goes pro but the other actually gets really into the subject she studies in college and pursues that, and they have to figure out a way to have a relationship that doesn't revolve around football, I love Jess and Tony's friendship, so I'd adore a story where they stay close or still talk despite the distance.

Basically, I'll love anything at all that involves these two together, though, working through their problems and coming out on the other side stronger than when they started, because if the movie proved one thing about their relationship to me, it was that they were capable of that.


I said most of it in my optional details above, but this is one of those fandoms where I could really go for either of them interacting with the other's family--either over the phone, or maybe when they're home for a holiday. Or adjusting to college in the US? Moving in to their first apartment? I really have nothing but ideas about these two, but I'm totally sure that anything you write will be great, so do what feels right!


Gilmore Girls, Rory/Paris

Again, though I'm up for anything, and always love a good AU, the thing that's in my head for these two is canon-compliant future fic, though beyond that I'm not too picky. I can totally see Paris going into politics and Rory covering her campaign, and sparks flying that way, but I can also see them meeting up again years later, on the heels of bad endings of relationships with other people, and just falling into bed with each other.

The truth is, as long as these two end up reasonably happy, or with the potential to become so (I can't stomach Rory Gilmore being unhappy too long, she reminds me too much of my little sister for that) I'll be happy.

(Don't let the sister comparison scare you off from writing porn, though--she doesn't remind me that much of my sister.)


I probably should have put this in the more general details, huh? I am always down for porn as long as it is attached to a plot, but I also read and write a lot of gen, and won't be disappointed if there is none. Fade-to-black is a tried and tested, age-old device, and I'm totally cool with it.

For these two, feel free to make it as wacky and/or heartwarming as the show. I think Rory and Paris could have a really interesting relationship dynamic, and also one that Lorelai would not quite get, though I'm sure she'd be understanding (Emily and Richard would probably be over the moon--Paris is definitely from the right kind of family).

On the other hand, if you wanted to go in an AU-ish direction (or even a canon one), I just had a flash of the two of them both teaching at a Chilton-like private school, so, you know, do with that what you will.

(Basically just have a ball writing it, mystery author, and I will have fun reading it.)


The Newsroom, Jim/Neal

Jim is so bad with women, seriously, he is so bad and offensive, and fucked up, in all the insidious little ways he'll never actually see, and because Sorkin is writing his female characters, they won't see it either.

He's got a really healthy relationship with Neal, though. Neal's the one he notices for ideas when he first arrives at ACN, Neal's the one he calls when he runs away from home to follow Romney on the campaign trail, and Neal's the one he thinks of in that mid-season episode where he sees the snatch of a news broadcast on tv from the campaign trail, and he doesn't even make a big thing of it, just mentions, "a buddy of mine," and moves on. Because Neal is in his thoughts. Casually. Constantly.

What am I saying, though? I don't need to convince you. If we matched on this pairing, mystery stranger, you already know all of this (and we should totally chat about it when this challenge is over, because I am hard pressed to find people to talk about my Jim/Neal love to). I guess there's so little written for this pairing that it doesn't matter too much to me what's in a story about them, just as long as it's written by someone as ridiculously invested in their ridiculous selves as me. Have fun with it!


Hmm, okay, tings I didn't put in my sign up--Neal is my favorite, in case that wasn't clear. Except for those couple of times when he's said gross, lech-ey (and, at one point, kind of date rape-ey) things, which I'm choosing to attribute to Sorkin not knowing how to write a guy who has a lot of sex without writing him creepy, so I'm interpreting the character based on what I read as the intention, rather than by those two or three scenes because shhhhh, it's a nicer place in my head that way, that's why.

Based on that, do you know what I would love to read? Bisexual, poly Neal who likes sex but only does relationships when he's really serious about them, and hasn't had time to go looking for one in years, because working at ACN kind of eats your life, and has been ignoring his blinding, obvious crush on Jim since Jim moved to New York.

That's just, you know, an idea. Really I can go for just about anything to do with these two, as long as it acknowledges their flaws, and maybe feels, like I do, that they'd mesh really well, flaws and all. Maybe something with them geeking out together? And I think Jim and Mac's relationship is super sweet, so anything to do with that would be cool as well.



Hope that helps! And thank you in advance for writing me a story!
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2014-01-21 01:53 pm

(no subject)

So fandom snowflake pretty much went out the window when classes started up again.

I'm taking a poetry workshop class--the advanced poetry workshop class at this school, which means my classmates all had to take two previous ones before getting to this one, which means I am at a loss to explain how I seem to be the most critical person in it.

I'm not actually that critical a person, I don't think (if I've ever beta-ed for you, you know that--I mostly just like to bounce up and down and talk about how things are great), but I don't see the point of a workshop that's just a mutual ego-stroking. If you think your work is perfect, or that you have nothing to learn from hearing other perspectives, why take a workshop at all? But they all seem afraid to make any comments at all because "Everybody is developing their own voice." Which is true, to a point, but ultimately not at all the issue, you know?

So we'll see how that goes. I got into a fight with this entitled jerk my first day that culminated in him telling me that I was punishing every writer who took their education seriously, which was, um, interesting. I asked him, "How am I punishing anyone by having opinions about my own education?" which shut him up pretty fucking fast. Idk, man. I'll be super glad to graduate, when that finally happens.

I have watched and have lots of feelings about both Orphan Black and Inside Llewyn Davis (which has a soundtrack to die for) so if you ever want to chat about either of those, you know where to find me. Some tumblr-er has compiled a Ryan Ross/Dan Keyes manifesto here, and while I think this person and I might disagree fundementally about what some of the dynamics of that relationship would look like, based on their commentary, there's some really delightful, squee-worthy stuff in there that I had never seen before.

Anyway, things are good-but-busy here, hope everything's great with you all, I'll try to get into a better rhythm of being in touch around here soon! <3
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2014-01-11 11:20 pm

nothing snowflakey today

it's raining here, but that's not why. I'm just so tired. My life is pretty well sorted out just now (which, for those of you playing along at home, is ALMOST NEVER TRUE, so I am writing it down as proof that it happens sometimes)--I cleaned the apartment, arranged advising for my thesis for my minor, and made a pretty spectacular dinner for old-roommate!bff, who came up for the night, if I do say so myself. I also got to work on-time and mostly succeeded at keeping at least a two-foot distance between me and creepy!boss. So I feel pretty accomplished, but also tired as fuck. Classes start the day after tomorrow and I feel utterly unready, and then I feel whiny for feeling so unready, which is no fun.

Plus, I think I'm getting anemic again. Which is probably why I'm so tired. I need to get on that shit, but I thought I was being so good.

So the snowflake challenge will have to wait another day, is my point. Time to wind this one down, kids. Just checking in to say hey.

I've had this song in my head a lot, lately:



(head out west, stake that claim, and forget everybody else's name)
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2014-01-10 09:42 pm

snowflake day 7

In your own space, create a fanwork. A drabble, a ficlet, a podfic, or an icon, art or meta or a rec list. A picspam. Something.

I had a couple of other things I wanted to get done for this one, but I'm weirdly tired tonight, so I took the easy way out and wrote the scene that got stuck in my head last week down.

old friends of the stars, 765 words of the conversation that happens directly after Ryan goes home after Let's begin at the beginning (we're lovers and we're losers). Is exactly as self-indulgent and emotionally fraught as the rest of the series, be warned.
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2014-01-10 12:01 am

snowflake day 6

(I'm going to start this by saying that I know there are some comments floating around that people have made on these posts that I haven't replied to yet. Life has gotten weirdly busy right now, I don't even know why, but they all made me all kinds of giddy-happy, and I will be responding to them as soon as I can brain again. Until then, here's time for some flail and no real substance!)

In your own space, share a book/song/movie/tv show/fanwork/etc that changed your life. Something that impacted on your consciousness in a way that left its mark on your soul.

I was having a hard time choosing what to talk about for this one, because that's the thing about fandom, isn't it? We are the people who let pieces of media change our lives in big, obvious, here-I-am-and-here-is-my-enthusiasm-and-never-shall-the-two-be-parted kinds of ways. So of course there are a lot of pieces of media that I could talk about as things that have changed my life.

Things only change your life when you connect to them, though. And you only connect to things based on who you are when you encounter them. So I'm going to talk about a tv show that has changed my life inasmuch as it has helped me solidify an understanding of who I already was when I encountered it.

It's not a secret that I love the show Shameless. The one that has my heart is the US version, which is currently starting its fourth season on Showtime. I know I have my Anglophile moments and also my moments of the-original-is-best media snobbery, but I also am American, and I also have the hugest soft spot in my heart for adaptations, and there's something about this Chicago-set show that gets under my skin the way the original UK version never did.

I was watching the first episode of the fourth season tonight with my roommate and one of my oldest best friends, both of whom love the show with the same kind of intensity that I do. They were talking about how Sheila, Karen's mother, was probably their favorite character after Lip, who they are both in love with, and I was trying to figure out, in my head, why I disagreed so very much.

For sure it's no comment on Joan Cusack's acting, which is fantastic, or the writing, which I love. I just don't like her character, and I realized, after a bit, that it's for the same reason that I love the show's main character, Fiona, with the same kind of intensity: Sheila has never succeeded in taking care of her people, while taking care of her people is all Fiona does.

I realize that this says more about my own values, and probably, to a certain degree, my own fucked-up priorities, than it does about either fictional woman. I know, intellectually, that I'm opposed to the idea that women need to be caregivers, and while they both take on a maternal role, which would suggest otherwise, I don't really think how I feel is about that, except maybe tangentially. It's about how I live my life by the idea that what you do, what you need to do, is that you pick your people, and then you do whatever you can to stick by them and do your best for them. You can't love everybody, you can't take care of the world, so you pick your people, and then you stand steady.

Maybe Fiona doesn't entirely have the luxury of choice, but who does, entirely? You live in the situation you live in, and she picks her brothers and sister again and again as she stays with them every day. She lets her parents go because they never held up their end of the deal. Sheila, on the other hand, can talk night and day about how much she loves her daughter, but she never ever sees her clearly, and when the chips are down, and Karen is at her most mangled, Sheila sends her off on a cross-country road trip alone with the sex addict husband who slept with her mother, so she can seek a miracle cure from some quack bearing wheat grass. And now I'm supposed to feel sorry she's lonely?

I have lots of other thoughts about the show, from all of the different ways Carl could grow up to the way I really really want to write queer!Mandy fic--there was a line of hers near the end of season three that I could totally see going there. The truth is, though, that when it comes right down to it, I mostly just adore Fiona Gallagher.
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2014-01-08 05:47 pm

snowflake day 8

So I'm planning on doing 6 and 7 after I do some laundry and some dishes tonight (we'll see how that goes) but I thought I'd cheat on the rules I have set for myself and skip forward to tonight's, partly as a way of feeling less behind, and partly because it sounds kind of nice right now. So!

In your own space, create a love meme for yourself. Let people tell you how amazing and awesome and loveable you really are.

Um, here's a love meme? The masterpost for everyone doing the snowflake challenge is here if you're curious, or you feel like sharing some more love. I haven't participated in one of these in a while because I remember them being pretty nerve-wracking, but it's such a sweet idea, so here I am again.